complicated

Happy Chinese New Year everybody!!!

This new year, I'm getting less than I've gotten in the past two years. I suppose it's because my family is assuming that I have or am about to get a part time job. It's my own fault of course, I'm now 19 and in college, and I keep saying that I'm looking for a part time job even though I have yet to drag myself out of the house to do so.

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For me, school is fine, I'm scraping by and clinging to my academics with all ten of my ffingers and toes even though the rock face that is school is cutting them to the bone. The stress is awful, but I'm hanging in there, I have the support of all my wonderful friends and my precious cousins to keep me afloat. Unfortunately, however, no matter that I'm on the verge of falling off the cliff and plummeting to my doom in failure, I'm still holding on, but I can't really say the same for my friend who is closer to the edge than I am...

M-chan is worrying herself sick. It was her bad luck that she chose a teacher that seemingly has it out for her. She has told me that she might fail the course, and considering the slasher job her teacher does on her paper, I'm not surprised. But as if that wasn't bad enough, she is taking a logic based class, (chemistry) during a six week course. It's tough on her since she's in that class for up to five hours, and her grade is fluctuating badly, so there's some added stress. I can't seem to do anything for her except when we're at school, and even I know that she's emoing when I'm not there.

M-chan! don't do anything stupid kay? All of us (your friends) are here for you!

Let us (your friends and family) be your pillar of support!

Hang in there! only four more days!

lif in general

I shoulda wrote about this earlier this week when I first found out, but I guess I'm been busy trying to wrap my head around what happened.

Something has happened! I'm pretty sure a friendship that has, for me, dulled and become an annoyance of sorts, has been irreparably broken. I should be weepy and begging forgiveness, but oddly, I hardly feel anything. In fact, I feel lighter... As if an enormous burden has just been lifted off my shoulders. Maybe I was just deluding myself into thinking it was friendship when it was simply me taking advantage of the nearest available human resource.

Heh, I never thought that the weight on my shoulders might have been because the resource was getting troublesome. It's probably also because the resource developed feelings for me when I felt nothing for it but mild annoyance. I admit I was getting worried about it. I had been wondering how to resolve this dilemma with the minimum trouble, but the resource has done the work for me.

Granted that it leaves me in a bit of a pinch, since mother fell ill recently, and will be staying home to rest, so she won't be driving me to school, which leaves be with a slight problem, but that little problem has been, I hope, resolved. Some one I consider a [u][b]true[/b][/u] friend has promised to speak with her mother about it, and I do hope that I will get a ride, or else I will have to find an alternative route home. If I have to take the bus, I'll talk mother into giving me the money neccessary for a weeklong bus pass, which is about $60 if I buy it from the PCC Student Bank.

Well, whatever.

While I am not pleased about how the problem was resolved, I am not about to grovel for foregiveness. It's just not the type of person that I am. Why should I ask forgiveness when I hardly feel anything but mild annoyance and faint traces of amusement about it? Either way, I'm perfectly content with how things have come out.

Now if only this dratted cough would just go away....

Life in General... XD

I don't even know what's going on in my life anymore. I have so many stories in the works that I'm considering temporarily shutting down a few in order to concentrate on others. In any case, the internet in my house is so shaky that I keep getting disconnected. So, after the fifth to sixth time, I actually packed up and went over to Grandmom's house, which is where I am now... ^^ For now, lets just say that I'm very tired and simultaneously very bored. Despite all the classes I have, I actually don't have a lot of homework. Well, actually, I have math...

Considering my life, I think maybe it would be best if I planned out my classes for Summer Semester now. Sociology and geology... maybe anthropology or English 1B...

Ok... So now I'm rambling... XD I really am very bored... My cousins are playing computer games... Well, I'm doing the same, playing Dragonfable... In any case, they're talking on the phone, at least Benjiman is, and Nathan is being nosy and generally obnoxious. Sigh... I really need to get a life, or at least a part time job...

Any way, I just got back from class about half an hour ago, and I managed to finish the entire Japanese Exam in hiragana but for one line. ^^ I'm very proud of myself...

I have had about three cups of coffee since I woke up, so I'm kinda hyper... XD I lurve coffee...

Random stuff in life

I updated~! Yeah, I know that the chapters were pretty short, but still~ I updated! In anycase, I have to get to class, so I'm gone. I'll update again later! ^^

---Edit 8:33 PM---

I updated Soundscape just now.

I can see the moon. It's big and golden, and it looks like cheese~! ^^

Ok, back to studying for my japanese quiz.

---Edit 9:20 PM---

What do you do when a random 38 yr old person IMs you and you're too nice to just say "To Hell With You~!" and block them after the first 5 exchanges?

---Edit 9:25 PM---

Ok, what do you do when your father signs on using your brother's SN and starts pelting both you and said random person with questions to which you're not paying much attention because you're studying for a quiz that will take place tomorrow?