I shoulda wrote about this earlier this week when I first found out, but I guess I'm been busy trying to wrap my head around what happened.
Something has happened! I'm pretty sure a friendship that has, for me, dulled and become an annoyance of sorts, has been irreparably broken. I should be weepy and begging forgiveness, but oddly, I hardly feel anything. In fact, I feel lighter... As if an enormous burden has just been lifted off my shoulders. Maybe I was just deluding myself into thinking it was friendship when it was simply me taking advantage of the nearest available human resource.
Heh, I never thought that the weight on my shoulders might have been because the resource was getting troublesome. It's probably also because the resource developed feelings for me when I felt nothing for it but mild annoyance. I admit I was getting worried about it. I had been wondering how to resolve this dilemma with the minimum trouble, but the resource has done the work for me.
Granted that it leaves me in a bit of a pinch, since mother fell ill recently, and will be staying home to rest, so she won't be driving me to school, which leaves be with a slight problem, but that little problem has been, I hope, resolved. Some one I consider a [u][b]true[/b][/u] friend has promised to speak with her mother about it, and I do hope that I will get a ride, or else I will have to find an alternative route home. If I have to take the bus, I'll talk mother into giving me the money neccessary for a weeklong bus pass, which is about $60 if I buy it from the PCC Student Bank.
Well, whatever.
While I am not pleased about how the problem was resolved, I am not about to grovel for foregiveness. It's just not the type of person that I am. Why should I ask forgiveness when I hardly feel anything but mild annoyance and faint traces of amusement about it? Either way, I'm perfectly content with how things have come out.
Now if only this dratted cough would just go away....
