Friday, February 24, 2006

Just under one minute left

I have another Enviromental Sciences project due... But my entire group skipped out on me... I have the powerpoint finished, I just need the bibliography, but I have all weekend for that. Our presentation will be on Monday, so there is more time to prepare... Joy...

I got stuck doing all the work again as well....

Wow... It's Been a While...

Wow.. It's been a whiloe since I updated, hasn't it? Sigh... Oh well...

Anyway, I have this cough that just WON'T go away....

On the other hand, I just finished a test, and I'm pretty confident that I did well... I must have been among the first five to finish...

Anyway, I have less than ten minutes to get this posted, so I'll stop with the small talk. I want more Prince of Tennis... I have up to episode 150, and I want to see more. My friend Peter is going to help me get the OAV and the movie, so I'm just waiting on my friend Mitsuki to download the rest of the episodes for me....

Then there is Kyou Kara Maou, I have up to episode 34, and I want to see more... I'm somewhat confused by the plot and storyline, but the anime is just plain funny, and I can't get enough of it!

I also want more Xenosaga. Peter was rather cruel, only giving me four episodes... Not that it matters, I would download the stuff myself, but my computer always corrupts the files somehow....

Anyway, I only have less than three minutes left to post this before the teacher kicks us out for lunch, so I'll leave off here and post...

But one last rant... I want more Tenipuri Doujinshi! Especially if its TezuRyo pairing! Pillar Pair forever!!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

PROJECTS, PROJECTS EVERY WHERE...

pROJECTS. GOTTA GO.

Sterfish's Place

Sterfish's Place

kINDA A PLACE i JUST BEEN TOO... WAS INTERESTED, AND DECIDED TO STICK IT HERE FOR SAFE KEEPING. GOTTA GO FINISH THE PROJECT.
JA.

Friday, December 23, 2005

day two of the break

Found seven new cuts on my arm. My winter break is getting off to a very bad start.

Monday, December 19, 2005

It's Monday... ((Dejectedly)) Yay...

Oh, It's monday... Joy...

On the good side, There's only two and a half more days to go before break starts.

I'm very glad. My friend has loaned me some DVDs concerning the anime "The Prince of Tennis"

Mitsuki, Karen and Jessica will kill me, but good god! Tezuka, Eiji, Ryoma, Momo, and Fuji are so cute!

My friend Mitsuki is so mean though. I know I haven't seen all the episodes of Prince of Tennis... She doesn't have to be so mean and critisize me though. I know Ryoma cannot stay stoic and anti-social forever, yet she has the gall to critisize me! I asked WHEN it happened... episode number, not spoilers! Geez!

For my own happiness, and the happiness of whoever is reading this, here is a website for Prince of Tennis...

http://www.animechains.com/princeoftennis/

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Another Dream, and a Terrifying Discovery...

I dreamed that I was in a large building, with many hallways. There were many doors, and there were little pads in the wall for codes and access cards. I was dressed in a formfitting suit similar to the synergetic suits in "Fafner in the Azure" and there were soldiers shooting at me with sub-machine guns. I knew they were firing sub-machine guns, even though in real life, I woould never be able to identify one... I was in front of a door, the door was shut, and I knew that inside was a computer lab, and my comrade needed time to download the files we needed and to compromise the system, and I was firing my own gun at the enemy.

I remember the door opening after a while, and my comrade, a female with black hair, about 5'3, with red eyes, japanese, dressed the same way I was, came out, and we ran down the halls. I got hit several times, and a few bullets grazed my left arm near the shoulder.

Then the entire dreamscape dissolved into a sea of red, the floor rippled and reflected my image at me, and it was raining blood. There were black feathers and rotting cherry blossoms floating past me on the shimmering red floor, and I knew that the redness was blood.

I started sinking, and I started screaming. The blood went into my mouth, I could taste it, and it flooded my nose. I was drowning in blood, I could see the feathers and rotting cherry above me, every thing was so red, I couldn't breathe or move... Then as my vision started getting dark, I woke up.

When I woke up, my left forearm was hurting, and while I was changing for school, I noticed that there were scratches on my arm near the shoulder. They were exactly where the bullets in my dream hit me, and one of them was still bleeding!

I don't know what is happening. Why am I dreaming such things? Why are injuries from my dreams translating into the waking world? Its fourth period, and my arm still hurts, especially when people in the halls jostle my arm.

I'm scared and confused. What's going on?

Monday, December 12, 2005

Another strange Dream...

I dreamt of money last night. I opened a textbook, my world Lit book, I believe, and found a 10,000 dollar bill... two of them!

And then, I put then inside a rat piggybank that belongs to my mother, at the very bottom! I don't remember dreaming anything else, but I know there was more...

I wish I could understand these weird dreams...

Anyway... I made a new xanga! http://www.xanga.com/AlexaClyne

My original xangas were http://www.xanga.com/LadyKamui16\ and http://www.xanga.com/EarthPrincess16

My live journals are http://www.livejournal.com/users/hitokiri07eva and http://www.livejournal.com/user/kunoichiyumemi

I know, I'm going overboard, but hey! I need an outlet!

I even have two quizilla accounts, under the names KunoichiUmi and MaskedGundam...

Anyway, Class is almost over, so I better go!

Friday, December 09, 2005

My nightmares just got worse

OK. I wrote in one of my previos posts that I had a horrible night mare. Well, guess what?

They just got worse.

Now, not only am I surrounded by my friends and family's bloody corpses, I see myself holding a bloody katana. I know the blood belong to the people on the ground, and the skin is flaking off my hands. My blood is black, and the area over my heart is black and rotting.

Does this mean that I am the one to blame for the horrors to come?

I hope not.

I know I hold people at arms length most of the time, but those whom I care for... When I care, I CARE.

Please let this be a warning and not a vision of what is to come...

I am scared...

Monday, December 05, 2005

What is MIR?

MIR is an entity which is around us at all times. MIR is a single entity, eternal and indestructable.

When we breathe, we inhale and exhale MIR. When we eat or drink, we consume MIR. Our material possessions and our sentinence is MIR. MIR is the gift of intellegance, the gift of choice, to choice our path in life, and to choose to exist in a world of conversation, or to choose not to exist in a world without conversation, in a path to the void.

Long ago, all objects and beings were one, and MIR was the source of the void. MIR manifested itself as the stars, which birthed the universe, and brought into the world beasts, plants, and minerals. With the birth of all things living, came also the birth of thought and intelligence. Mankind was born.

MIR is grafted into the very essence of our beings, and with MIR, comes the knowledge of existence and non-existence. MIR is life and choice. MIR is death and void.

MIR sustains life, and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the path into the void, in which one embraces death. In this choice one loses all semblance of humanity, with neither need, want, nor desire. One who walks the path of the void knows nothing and everything, and they strive to return all things to the void, and they feel nothing, neither pain, nor grief, nor joy, nor sorrow. Those who become one with MIR through the path of the void shed no tears, feel no fear or rage, and are empty and nonexistant. They do not exist, and simply are. They know nothing of pain and experiance.

MIR sustains life and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the world of conversation, in which one embraces life. In this choice, one gains a heart, and learn pain and experiance. They feel need, desire, want, loneliness, anger, hatred, joy, sorrow, grief, and shed tears. Those who walk the path into a world of conversation knows MIR, yet they do not know it. They experience MIR to the fullest extent, and do not know it. They learn and make mistakes. They perservere, and desire nothing more than to exist, to know pain and experience, to bring things into the world, and live before returning to the void.

MIR is a single entity which surrounds us at all times. MIR simply is, and is neither benevolent or malevolent. MIR is intent and choice. MIR is life and death. MIR is pain and experience. MIR is existence and void. MIR sustains life and destroys it. Mir is a single entity that existed long before time, and will continue to exist. MIR is the potential for life and the potential for death. Mir is a single entity that surrounds us at all time. Mir is eternal and indestructible. Mir is grafted into the very essence of our beings. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR, and are at all times one with MIR.

MIR is a single entity that surrounds us at all times. MIR is potential, eternal and indestructable.

A Foreshaadowing of Things to Come or is it Something Else?

I had a nightmare last night, and everytime I don't have something to do to, I see the corpes of my family and friends, lying in pools of blood, their skin pasty white with maggots and flies swarming over them, staring at me with blank glassy eyes. An ourouboros was hovering over them, and a circle of water was behind the ourouboros.

I don't know what brought that about, but I do know that something bad is going to happen soon. I don't dream often, and a nightmare is even more rare, and the few times I do dream, they are warnings.

I don't know why I had this dream. Why did the entity of MIR give me such a dream? Is what will be coming ahead so horrible that destiny and fate sees fit to warn me? I can't be sure. I have a horrible forbidding feeling...

I even woke up to find a spider on the wall above my bed. Another omen, a bad omen, and one that I cannot decipher.

In my dreams, I see what was, what might have been, what may be, what will be, and what IS. I can't know what I am being warned about, all I know is that it is a warning...

I hate to say it, but I am scared. I am completely terrified that what I have dreamed may come to pass. Illogical, yes, but when I dream, it's a warning or a foreshadowing. I am frightened...

To make things worse, I couldn't go back to sleep, which meant that when I dozed off in my classes, I saw the images of my nightmares. I couoldn't concentrate, and simply walking through the halls were torture, since every time I spoke with my friends, I see them as I saw them in my dream.

I am frightened. I know I will not have any sleep tonight, and I will not sleep well for many nights to come.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

22 more days... lalalalala....

Giggles... 22 more day till christmas! I wonder what I'll get.

I hope it's books by Susan R Matthews...

I really want to read Prisoner of conscience, Hour of Judgement, and Exchange of hostages...

I hear that they're really good books, and the exerpts I've read aint half bad either...

If not, I'd love to get Sherwood Smith's Crown Duel and Court Duel... I loved the story when I borrowed the book from the library last year. Unfortunately, since the Bruggermeyer moved to Monterey Pass Road while the library is under constrution, over half of the books are in storage, so I really have no way to access it. I could always order it, but I don't think my parents would be extremely happy that I spent the money on something other than school books.

I will need that money for my schoolbooks next year, after all.

If there is any college that will take me, I hope to god that it is the Dominican in San Rafael or the Academy of Art in San Fransico. I wouldn't mind it if USC took me either....

I hate being a Senior. There's so much to do and so little time!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Time sure moves quickly, doesn't it?

It is December at long last!

Christmas is almost here! just a few more days!

Any way, I have a lot of homework, so I'll see ya all later!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

ES Biome Project...

Do none of you ever check the blog? Tomorrow we meet at the library, at 11:00 AM. I may arrive a bit late, At 11:15 at latest.

Bring all necessary materials, money for copies, poster board, pencil, pen, paper, etc... Bring your textbook, and if neccessary, the prompt for the project.

Leave nothing behind, no matter how insignificant. It may turn out to be useful later on.

Yumemi

Monday, November 21, 2005

ES Biome Project

Sigh... For the Record...

Initial = ID

E.S.M. = Mitsui

A.L. = Aki

Q.Y. = Sora

P.T. = Yumemi

To whomever is doing interspecific competition... If you can find whomever is doing the food web, and if they are willing to switch with you, go right ahead. The definition of INTERSPECIFIC COMPETITION is MEMBERS OF TWO OR MORE SPECIES TRYING TO USE THE SAME LIMITED RESOURCES IN AN ECOSYSTEM. Whereas INTERFERENCE COMPETITION is a SITUATION IN WHICH ONE SPECIES LIMITS THE ACCESS OF ANOTHER SPECIES TO A RESOURCE, REGARDLESS OF WHETHER THE RESOURCE IS ABUNDANT OR SCARE.

Aki... I will let you slide, just this once, however... You had better get the work done! Our grade depends on this project! Please remember that!

Yes, Q.Y. Your ID here is Sora... And don't you DARE wahtever US, young man! Our grade depends on this project, or are you so eager to get a bad grade?!!! XC

ES Biome Project

For Enviromental Science, we have a Biome Project. Due Monday, November 28.

Aki
Sora
Mitsui

Codenames for my partners while we work.

For the members of my group, remember that I will check this blog every day at 11 AM and 5 PM. But that doesn't mean that you should not drop your summaries and plans here every day between 8AM and 9 PM over our five day holiday. Please remember that our grade depends on this project, and do remember to drop in.

Yumemi out.

Friday, November 18, 2005

College Applications... Scary...

IT has been a very long day and my family is badgering me about college apps and such. Evidently, they don't trust registering on the internet very much, and I'm expected to bring back home a few applications from the Career Center @ school....

Too badd I'm so nervous about such things, but I do need the applications to get into college...

Listing of colleges I want to Attend:

Dominican University

CalState LA

USC

UCLA

ELAC (A bit on the low scale, but hey! we can't have everything!)

Academy of Art, San Fransisco

UC Riverside (Not going to be easy to get into though, considering my grades and lack of SAT scores...)

I am a total idiot... Too scared to pick up college apps... Feh, coward...

Need scholarships, and grants, and possibly loans in order to get to school, but that's a total other story.

It's getting late, and despite the coffee and nap, I'm tired. See ya!

Thursday, November 17, 2005

OMIGOSH! OMIGOSH!! OMIGOSH!!!

OMIGOSH!!! OMIGOSH!!! OMIGOSH!!! I cannot believe it! I just recieved an e-mail from a publishing company! They saw some of my work, and want to publish!

OMIGOSH! !!!O_O!!!

I cannot believe this!!! @o@ I'm so excited!!!

I only put up one or two chapters of a rough draft for some of my Stories, for http://www.FictionPress.net and several more chapters for my stories on http://www.fanfiction.net so I don't think that I really have that much to work with... But OMIGOSH!!!

http://www.xlibris.com wants to help publish some of my stuff! OMIGOSH!!! This is so cool!!!

Takes deep Breath...

I just hope all of this excitement didn't affect my ability to concentrate on my Accounting Test too badly...

But OMIGOSH!!!! I still cannot believe this!!! This is so very cool!!!

I will respond and accept, I think, and I'd love to be able to publish my work!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Mix It Up

Today is also mix it up day. I missed it since I was such a weakling and collapsed. damn it.

So very Tired

I was so tired... The fact that it's that time of the month doesn't help either. In fact, things got so bad, I collapsed in the middle of lunch! I spent the entire fifth period in the nurse's office! How could this have happened? How could I have been so weak!

So damned WEAK!!!

I am so pissed!