Friday, December 23, 2005
day two of the break
Found seven new cuts on my arm. My winter break is getting off to a very bad start.
Monday, December 19, 2005
It's Monday... ((Dejectedly)) Yay...
Oh, It's monday... Joy...
On the good side, There's only two and a half more days to go before break starts.
I'm very glad. My friend has loaned me some DVDs concerning the anime "The Prince of Tennis"
Mitsuki, Karen and Jessica will kill me, but good god! Tezuka, Eiji, Ryoma, Momo, and Fuji are so cute!
My friend Mitsuki is so mean though. I know I haven't seen all the episodes of Prince of Tennis... She doesn't have to be so mean and critisize me though. I know Ryoma cannot stay stoic and anti-social forever, yet she has the gall to critisize me! I asked WHEN it happened... episode number, not spoilers! Geez!
For my own happiness, and the happiness of whoever is reading this, here is a website for Prince of Tennis...
http://www.animechains.com/princeoftennis/
On the good side, There's only two and a half more days to go before break starts.
I'm very glad. My friend has loaned me some DVDs concerning the anime "The Prince of Tennis"
Mitsuki, Karen and Jessica will kill me, but good god! Tezuka, Eiji, Ryoma, Momo, and Fuji are so cute!
My friend Mitsuki is so mean though. I know I haven't seen all the episodes of Prince of Tennis... She doesn't have to be so mean and critisize me though. I know Ryoma cannot stay stoic and anti-social forever, yet she has the gall to critisize me! I asked WHEN it happened... episode number, not spoilers! Geez!
For my own happiness, and the happiness of whoever is reading this, here is a website for Prince of Tennis...
http://www.animechains.com/princeoftennis/
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Another Dream, and a Terrifying Discovery...
I dreamed that I was in a large building, with many hallways. There were many doors, and there were little pads in the wall for codes and access cards. I was dressed in a formfitting suit similar to the synergetic suits in "Fafner in the Azure" and there were soldiers shooting at me with sub-machine guns. I knew they were firing sub-machine guns, even though in real life, I woould never be able to identify one... I was in front of a door, the door was shut, and I knew that inside was a computer lab, and my comrade needed time to download the files we needed and to compromise the system, and I was firing my own gun at the enemy.
I remember the door opening after a while, and my comrade, a female with black hair, about 5'3, with red eyes, japanese, dressed the same way I was, came out, and we ran down the halls. I got hit several times, and a few bullets grazed my left arm near the shoulder.
Then the entire dreamscape dissolved into a sea of red, the floor rippled and reflected my image at me, and it was raining blood. There were black feathers and rotting cherry blossoms floating past me on the shimmering red floor, and I knew that the redness was blood.
I started sinking, and I started screaming. The blood went into my mouth, I could taste it, and it flooded my nose. I was drowning in blood, I could see the feathers and rotting cherry above me, every thing was so red, I couldn't breathe or move... Then as my vision started getting dark, I woke up.
When I woke up, my left forearm was hurting, and while I was changing for school, I noticed that there were scratches on my arm near the shoulder. They were exactly where the bullets in my dream hit me, and one of them was still bleeding!
I don't know what is happening. Why am I dreaming such things? Why are injuries from my dreams translating into the waking world? Its fourth period, and my arm still hurts, especially when people in the halls jostle my arm.
I'm scared and confused. What's going on?
I remember the door opening after a while, and my comrade, a female with black hair, about 5'3, with red eyes, japanese, dressed the same way I was, came out, and we ran down the halls. I got hit several times, and a few bullets grazed my left arm near the shoulder.
Then the entire dreamscape dissolved into a sea of red, the floor rippled and reflected my image at me, and it was raining blood. There were black feathers and rotting cherry blossoms floating past me on the shimmering red floor, and I knew that the redness was blood.
I started sinking, and I started screaming. The blood went into my mouth, I could taste it, and it flooded my nose. I was drowning in blood, I could see the feathers and rotting cherry above me, every thing was so red, I couldn't breathe or move... Then as my vision started getting dark, I woke up.
When I woke up, my left forearm was hurting, and while I was changing for school, I noticed that there were scratches on my arm near the shoulder. They were exactly where the bullets in my dream hit me, and one of them was still bleeding!
I don't know what is happening. Why am I dreaming such things? Why are injuries from my dreams translating into the waking world? Its fourth period, and my arm still hurts, especially when people in the halls jostle my arm.
I'm scared and confused. What's going on?
Monday, December 12, 2005
Another strange Dream...
I dreamt of money last night. I opened a textbook, my world Lit book, I believe, and found a 10,000 dollar bill... two of them!
And then, I put then inside a rat piggybank that belongs to my mother, at the very bottom! I don't remember dreaming anything else, but I know there was more...
I wish I could understand these weird dreams...
Anyway... I made a new xanga! http://www.xanga.com/AlexaClyne
My original xangas were http://www.xanga.com/LadyKamui16\ and http://www.xanga.com/EarthPrincess16
My live journals are http://www.livejournal.com/users/hitokiri07eva and http://www.livejournal.com/user/kunoichiyumemi
I know, I'm going overboard, but hey! I need an outlet!
I even have two quizilla accounts, under the names KunoichiUmi and MaskedGundam...
Anyway, Class is almost over, so I better go!
And then, I put then inside a rat piggybank that belongs to my mother, at the very bottom! I don't remember dreaming anything else, but I know there was more...
I wish I could understand these weird dreams...
Anyway... I made a new xanga! http://www.xanga.com/AlexaClyne
My original xangas were http://www.xanga.com/LadyKamui16\ and http://www.xanga.com/EarthPrincess16
My live journals are http://www.livejournal.com/users/hitokiri07eva and http://www.livejournal.com/user/kunoichiyumemi
I know, I'm going overboard, but hey! I need an outlet!
I even have two quizilla accounts, under the names KunoichiUmi and MaskedGundam...
Anyway, Class is almost over, so I better go!
Friday, December 09, 2005
My nightmares just got worse
OK. I wrote in one of my previos posts that I had a horrible night mare. Well, guess what?
They just got worse.
Now, not only am I surrounded by my friends and family's bloody corpses, I see myself holding a bloody katana. I know the blood belong to the people on the ground, and the skin is flaking off my hands. My blood is black, and the area over my heart is black and rotting.
Does this mean that I am the one to blame for the horrors to come?
I hope not.
I know I hold people at arms length most of the time, but those whom I care for... When I care, I CARE.
Please let this be a warning and not a vision of what is to come...
I am scared...
They just got worse.
Now, not only am I surrounded by my friends and family's bloody corpses, I see myself holding a bloody katana. I know the blood belong to the people on the ground, and the skin is flaking off my hands. My blood is black, and the area over my heart is black and rotting.
Does this mean that I am the one to blame for the horrors to come?
I hope not.
I know I hold people at arms length most of the time, but those whom I care for... When I care, I CARE.
Please let this be a warning and not a vision of what is to come...
I am scared...
Monday, December 05, 2005
What is MIR?
MIR is an entity which is around us at all times. MIR is a single entity, eternal and indestructable.
When we breathe, we inhale and exhale MIR. When we eat or drink, we consume MIR. Our material possessions and our sentinence is MIR. MIR is the gift of intellegance, the gift of choice, to choice our path in life, and to choose to exist in a world of conversation, or to choose not to exist in a world without conversation, in a path to the void.
Long ago, all objects and beings were one, and MIR was the source of the void. MIR manifested itself as the stars, which birthed the universe, and brought into the world beasts, plants, and minerals. With the birth of all things living, came also the birth of thought and intelligence. Mankind was born.
MIR is grafted into the very essence of our beings, and with MIR, comes the knowledge of existence and non-existence. MIR is life and choice. MIR is death and void.
MIR sustains life, and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the path into the void, in which one embraces death. In this choice one loses all semblance of humanity, with neither need, want, nor desire. One who walks the path of the void knows nothing and everything, and they strive to return all things to the void, and they feel nothing, neither pain, nor grief, nor joy, nor sorrow. Those who become one with MIR through the path of the void shed no tears, feel no fear or rage, and are empty and nonexistant. They do not exist, and simply are. They know nothing of pain and experiance.
MIR sustains life and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the world of conversation, in which one embraces life. In this choice, one gains a heart, and learn pain and experiance. They feel need, desire, want, loneliness, anger, hatred, joy, sorrow, grief, and shed tears. Those who walk the path into a world of conversation knows MIR, yet they do not know it. They experience MIR to the fullest extent, and do not know it. They learn and make mistakes. They perservere, and desire nothing more than to exist, to know pain and experience, to bring things into the world, and live before returning to the void.
MIR is a single entity which surrounds us at all times. MIR simply is, and is neither benevolent or malevolent. MIR is intent and choice. MIR is life and death. MIR is pain and experience. MIR is existence and void. MIR sustains life and destroys it. Mir is a single entity that existed long before time, and will continue to exist. MIR is the potential for life and the potential for death. Mir is a single entity that surrounds us at all time. Mir is eternal and indestructible. Mir is grafted into the very essence of our beings. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR, and are at all times one with MIR.
MIR is a single entity that surrounds us at all times. MIR is potential, eternal and indestructable.
When we breathe, we inhale and exhale MIR. When we eat or drink, we consume MIR. Our material possessions and our sentinence is MIR. MIR is the gift of intellegance, the gift of choice, to choice our path in life, and to choose to exist in a world of conversation, or to choose not to exist in a world without conversation, in a path to the void.
Long ago, all objects and beings were one, and MIR was the source of the void. MIR manifested itself as the stars, which birthed the universe, and brought into the world beasts, plants, and minerals. With the birth of all things living, came also the birth of thought and intelligence. Mankind was born.
MIR is grafted into the very essence of our beings, and with MIR, comes the knowledge of existence and non-existence. MIR is life and choice. MIR is death and void.
MIR sustains life, and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the path into the void, in which one embraces death. In this choice one loses all semblance of humanity, with neither need, want, nor desire. One who walks the path of the void knows nothing and everything, and they strive to return all things to the void, and they feel nothing, neither pain, nor grief, nor joy, nor sorrow. Those who become one with MIR through the path of the void shed no tears, feel no fear or rage, and are empty and nonexistant. They do not exist, and simply are. They know nothing of pain and experiance.
MIR sustains life and destroys it. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR. We may become one with MIR by choosing the world of conversation, in which one embraces life. In this choice, one gains a heart, and learn pain and experiance. They feel need, desire, want, loneliness, anger, hatred, joy, sorrow, grief, and shed tears. Those who walk the path into a world of conversation knows MIR, yet they do not know it. They experience MIR to the fullest extent, and do not know it. They learn and make mistakes. They perservere, and desire nothing more than to exist, to know pain and experience, to bring things into the world, and live before returning to the void.
MIR is a single entity which surrounds us at all times. MIR simply is, and is neither benevolent or malevolent. MIR is intent and choice. MIR is life and death. MIR is pain and experience. MIR is existence and void. MIR sustains life and destroys it. Mir is a single entity that existed long before time, and will continue to exist. MIR is the potential for life and the potential for death. Mir is a single entity that surrounds us at all time. Mir is eternal and indestructible. Mir is grafted into the very essence of our beings. At all times, we strive to become one with MIR, and are at all times one with MIR.
MIR is a single entity that surrounds us at all times. MIR is potential, eternal and indestructable.
A Foreshaadowing of Things to Come or is it Something Else?
I had a nightmare last night, and everytime I don't have something to do to, I see the corpes of my family and friends, lying in pools of blood, their skin pasty white with maggots and flies swarming over them, staring at me with blank glassy eyes. An ourouboros was hovering over them, and a circle of water was behind the ourouboros.
I don't know what brought that about, but I do know that something bad is going to happen soon. I don't dream often, and a nightmare is even more rare, and the few times I do dream, they are warnings.
I don't know why I had this dream. Why did the entity of MIR give me such a dream? Is what will be coming ahead so horrible that destiny and fate sees fit to warn me? I can't be sure. I have a horrible forbidding feeling...
I even woke up to find a spider on the wall above my bed. Another omen, a bad omen, and one that I cannot decipher.
In my dreams, I see what was, what might have been, what may be, what will be, and what IS. I can't know what I am being warned about, all I know is that it is a warning...
I hate to say it, but I am scared. I am completely terrified that what I have dreamed may come to pass. Illogical, yes, but when I dream, it's a warning or a foreshadowing. I am frightened...
To make things worse, I couldn't go back to sleep, which meant that when I dozed off in my classes, I saw the images of my nightmares. I couoldn't concentrate, and simply walking through the halls were torture, since every time I spoke with my friends, I see them as I saw them in my dream.
I am frightened. I know I will not have any sleep tonight, and I will not sleep well for many nights to come.
I don't know what brought that about, but I do know that something bad is going to happen soon. I don't dream often, and a nightmare is even more rare, and the few times I do dream, they are warnings.
I don't know why I had this dream. Why did the entity of MIR give me such a dream? Is what will be coming ahead so horrible that destiny and fate sees fit to warn me? I can't be sure. I have a horrible forbidding feeling...
I even woke up to find a spider on the wall above my bed. Another omen, a bad omen, and one that I cannot decipher.
In my dreams, I see what was, what might have been, what may be, what will be, and what IS. I can't know what I am being warned about, all I know is that it is a warning...
I hate to say it, but I am scared. I am completely terrified that what I have dreamed may come to pass. Illogical, yes, but when I dream, it's a warning or a foreshadowing. I am frightened...
To make things worse, I couldn't go back to sleep, which meant that when I dozed off in my classes, I saw the images of my nightmares. I couoldn't concentrate, and simply walking through the halls were torture, since every time I spoke with my friends, I see them as I saw them in my dream.
I am frightened. I know I will not have any sleep tonight, and I will not sleep well for many nights to come.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
22 more days... lalalalala....
Giggles... 22 more day till christmas! I wonder what I'll get.
I hope it's books by Susan R Matthews...
I really want to read Prisoner of conscience, Hour of Judgement, and Exchange of hostages...
I hear that they're really good books, and the exerpts I've read aint half bad either...
If not, I'd love to get Sherwood Smith's Crown Duel and Court Duel... I loved the story when I borrowed the book from the library last year. Unfortunately, since the Bruggermeyer moved to Monterey Pass Road while the library is under constrution, over half of the books are in storage, so I really have no way to access it. I could always order it, but I don't think my parents would be extremely happy that I spent the money on something other than school books.
I will need that money for my schoolbooks next year, after all.
If there is any college that will take me, I hope to god that it is the Dominican in San Rafael or the Academy of Art in San Fransico. I wouldn't mind it if USC took me either....
I hate being a Senior. There's so much to do and so little time!
I hope it's books by Susan R Matthews...
I really want to read Prisoner of conscience, Hour of Judgement, and Exchange of hostages...
I hear that they're really good books, and the exerpts I've read aint half bad either...
If not, I'd love to get Sherwood Smith's Crown Duel and Court Duel... I loved the story when I borrowed the book from the library last year. Unfortunately, since the Bruggermeyer moved to Monterey Pass Road while the library is under constrution, over half of the books are in storage, so I really have no way to access it. I could always order it, but I don't think my parents would be extremely happy that I spent the money on something other than school books.
I will need that money for my schoolbooks next year, after all.
If there is any college that will take me, I hope to god that it is the Dominican in San Rafael or the Academy of Art in San Fransico. I wouldn't mind it if USC took me either....
I hate being a Senior. There's so much to do and so little time!
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Time sure moves quickly, doesn't it?
It is December at long last!
Christmas is almost here! just a few more days!
Any way, I have a lot of homework, so I'll see ya all later!
Christmas is almost here! just a few more days!
Any way, I have a lot of homework, so I'll see ya all later!
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
ES Biome Project...
Do none of you ever check the blog? Tomorrow we meet at the library, at 11:00 AM. I may arrive a bit late, At 11:15 at latest.
Bring all necessary materials, money for copies, poster board, pencil, pen, paper, etc... Bring your textbook, and if neccessary, the prompt for the project.
Leave nothing behind, no matter how insignificant. It may turn out to be useful later on.
Yumemi
Bring all necessary materials, money for copies, poster board, pencil, pen, paper, etc... Bring your textbook, and if neccessary, the prompt for the project.
Leave nothing behind, no matter how insignificant. It may turn out to be useful later on.
Yumemi
Monday, November 21, 2005
ES Biome Project
Sigh... For the Record...
Initial = ID
E.S.M. = Mitsui
A.L. = Aki
Q.Y. = Sora
P.T. = Yumemi
To whomever is doing interspecific competition... If you can find whomever is doing the food web, and if they are willing to switch with you, go right ahead. The definition of INTERSPECIFIC COMPETITION is MEMBERS OF TWO OR MORE SPECIES TRYING TO USE THE SAME LIMITED RESOURCES IN AN ECOSYSTEM. Whereas INTERFERENCE COMPETITION is a SITUATION IN WHICH ONE SPECIES LIMITS THE ACCESS OF ANOTHER SPECIES TO A RESOURCE, REGARDLESS OF WHETHER THE RESOURCE IS ABUNDANT OR SCARE.
Aki... I will let you slide, just this once, however... You had better get the work done! Our grade depends on this project! Please remember that!
Yes, Q.Y. Your ID here is Sora... And don't you DARE wahtever US, young man! Our grade depends on this project, or are you so eager to get a bad grade?!!! XC
Initial = ID
E.S.M. = Mitsui
A.L. = Aki
Q.Y. = Sora
P.T. = Yumemi
To whomever is doing interspecific competition... If you can find whomever is doing the food web, and if they are willing to switch with you, go right ahead. The definition of INTERSPECIFIC COMPETITION is MEMBERS OF TWO OR MORE SPECIES TRYING TO USE THE SAME LIMITED RESOURCES IN AN ECOSYSTEM. Whereas INTERFERENCE COMPETITION is a SITUATION IN WHICH ONE SPECIES LIMITS THE ACCESS OF ANOTHER SPECIES TO A RESOURCE, REGARDLESS OF WHETHER THE RESOURCE IS ABUNDANT OR SCARE.
Aki... I will let you slide, just this once, however... You had better get the work done! Our grade depends on this project! Please remember that!
Yes, Q.Y. Your ID here is Sora... And don't you DARE wahtever US, young man! Our grade depends on this project, or are you so eager to get a bad grade?!!! XC
ES Biome Project
For Enviromental Science, we have a Biome Project. Due Monday, November 28.
Aki
Sora
Mitsui
Codenames for my partners while we work.
For the members of my group, remember that I will check this blog every day at 11 AM and 5 PM. But that doesn't mean that you should not drop your summaries and plans here every day between 8AM and 9 PM over our five day holiday. Please remember that our grade depends on this project, and do remember to drop in.
Yumemi out.
Aki
Sora
Mitsui
Codenames for my partners while we work.
For the members of my group, remember that I will check this blog every day at 11 AM and 5 PM. But that doesn't mean that you should not drop your summaries and plans here every day between 8AM and 9 PM over our five day holiday. Please remember that our grade depends on this project, and do remember to drop in.
Yumemi out.
Friday, November 18, 2005
College Applications... Scary...
IT has been a very long day and my family is badgering me about college apps and such. Evidently, they don't trust registering on the internet very much, and I'm expected to bring back home a few applications from the Career Center @ school....
Too badd I'm so nervous about such things, but I do need the applications to get into college...
Listing of colleges I want to Attend:
Dominican University
CalState LA
USC
UCLA
ELAC (A bit on the low scale, but hey! we can't have everything!)
Academy of Art, San Fransisco
UC Riverside (Not going to be easy to get into though, considering my grades and lack of SAT scores...)
I am a total idiot... Too scared to pick up college apps... Feh, coward...
Need scholarships, and grants, and possibly loans in order to get to school, but that's a total other story.
It's getting late, and despite the coffee and nap, I'm tired. See ya!
Too badd I'm so nervous about such things, but I do need the applications to get into college...
Listing of colleges I want to Attend:
Dominican University
CalState LA
USC
UCLA
ELAC (A bit on the low scale, but hey! we can't have everything!)
Academy of Art, San Fransisco
UC Riverside (Not going to be easy to get into though, considering my grades and lack of SAT scores...)
I am a total idiot... Too scared to pick up college apps... Feh, coward...
Need scholarships, and grants, and possibly loans in order to get to school, but that's a total other story.
It's getting late, and despite the coffee and nap, I'm tired. See ya!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
OMIGOSH! OMIGOSH!! OMIGOSH!!!
OMIGOSH!!! OMIGOSH!!! OMIGOSH!!! I cannot believe it! I just recieved an e-mail from a publishing company! They saw some of my work, and want to publish!
OMIGOSH! !!!O_O!!!
I cannot believe this!!! @o@ I'm so excited!!!
I only put up one or two chapters of a rough draft for some of my Stories, for http://www.FictionPress.net and several more chapters for my stories on http://www.fanfiction.net so I don't think that I really have that much to work with... But OMIGOSH!!!
http://www.xlibris.com wants to help publish some of my stuff! OMIGOSH!!! This is so cool!!!
Takes deep Breath...
I just hope all of this excitement didn't affect my ability to concentrate on my Accounting Test too badly...
But OMIGOSH!!!! I still cannot believe this!!! This is so very cool!!!
I will respond and accept, I think, and I'd love to be able to publish my work!
OMIGOSH! !!!O_O!!!
I cannot believe this!!! @o@ I'm so excited!!!
I only put up one or two chapters of a rough draft for some of my Stories, for http://www.FictionPress.net and several more chapters for my stories on http://www.fanfiction.net so I don't think that I really have that much to work with... But OMIGOSH!!!
http://www.xlibris.com wants to help publish some of my stuff! OMIGOSH!!! This is so cool!!!
Takes deep Breath...
I just hope all of this excitement didn't affect my ability to concentrate on my Accounting Test too badly...
But OMIGOSH!!!! I still cannot believe this!!! This is so very cool!!!
I will respond and accept, I think, and I'd love to be able to publish my work!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Mix It Up
Today is also mix it up day. I missed it since I was such a weakling and collapsed. damn it.
So very Tired
I was so tired... The fact that it's that time of the month doesn't help either. In fact, things got so bad, I collapsed in the middle of lunch! I spent the entire fifth period in the nurse's office! How could this have happened? How could I have been so weak!
So damned WEAK!!!
I am so pissed!
So damned WEAK!!!
I am so pissed!
Monday, November 14, 2005
I know I am Strange, and I am Proud of it
I am a strange person I always have been. There is TREEsa at LiveJournal who is among some of the first to say so. there is another who said that I am psycho, but that was an annonymous comment.
Frankly, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I can't force anyone to be my friend if they don't want to. The world doesn't work that way, and it is certainly not my preferred modus operandi. If TREEsa wanted me to un-friend her, all she really had to do was ask. But she chose to wait until I introduced myself to her in order to make the request.
I am willing to let her rant and yell at me all she wants tomorrow at mix-it-up day, but I won't go near the music area, not unless it is for lunch or to go home after my shift at the library on Wednesdays.
I may be insane/psycho/weird/unique/odd/schizophrenic, but I'm not entirely heartless. I won't go over if she seriously doesn't want me to. All she really has to do is ask, and I will stay away.
I'm not like other people, I know it. Frankly, I'm not at all insulted by some of the things that people say about me, since some may be truth, and I accept it as a part of who I am. As for the other rumors, well, if it's false, I guess all I can really do is ignore it or smile in amusement, no matter how much it hurts.
TREEsa may not want to see me face to face, but honestly, there is no way she can avoid it. We could possibly see each other every day without fail and would never realize it. It is possible, considering the size of Mark Keppel HS, but not likely. Even if by some strange chance, we managed to avoid meeting each other face to face, we would inevitably meet at graduation.
It would be inevitable that we meet. We cannot avoid each other forever, and we would meet face to face, if only for a few seconds. We are both members of the graduating class of '06 at Mark Keppel after all.
I am rather... upset...
She knew my user name for the LJ, and she could have dropped off a comment requesting me to stop or un-friend her, but she refused. She waited until I introduced myself to really say anything, and frankly, it hurts.
I may sometimes be confused by what I am feeling, and I may consider emotion as a weakness, but I am only human. I may be able to prevent my self from feeling certain emotions, but I can still feel regardless of my ideals or beliefs. I am human, flesh and blood and bone, not stone. I can still feel, even if I wish I could not.
I am not insulted. I'm just... a tad... upset...
But at the same time...
I'm glad...
I'm glad that after a few online encounters, someone could see my uniqueness and comment on it...
I'm glad to know that I'm not just one of hundreds of mass produced humans made up of carbon...
I am not insulted...
I'm just...
A tad...
upset...
Frankly, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I can't force anyone to be my friend if they don't want to. The world doesn't work that way, and it is certainly not my preferred modus operandi. If TREEsa wanted me to un-friend her, all she really had to do was ask. But she chose to wait until I introduced myself to her in order to make the request.
I am willing to let her rant and yell at me all she wants tomorrow at mix-it-up day, but I won't go near the music area, not unless it is for lunch or to go home after my shift at the library on Wednesdays.
I may be insane/psycho/weird/unique/odd/schizophrenic, but I'm not entirely heartless. I won't go over if she seriously doesn't want me to. All she really has to do is ask, and I will stay away.
I'm not like other people, I know it. Frankly, I'm not at all insulted by some of the things that people say about me, since some may be truth, and I accept it as a part of who I am. As for the other rumors, well, if it's false, I guess all I can really do is ignore it or smile in amusement, no matter how much it hurts.
TREEsa may not want to see me face to face, but honestly, there is no way she can avoid it. We could possibly see each other every day without fail and would never realize it. It is possible, considering the size of Mark Keppel HS, but not likely. Even if by some strange chance, we managed to avoid meeting each other face to face, we would inevitably meet at graduation.
It would be inevitable that we meet. We cannot avoid each other forever, and we would meet face to face, if only for a few seconds. We are both members of the graduating class of '06 at Mark Keppel after all.
I am rather... upset...
She knew my user name for the LJ, and she could have dropped off a comment requesting me to stop or un-friend her, but she refused. She waited until I introduced myself to really say anything, and frankly, it hurts.
I may sometimes be confused by what I am feeling, and I may consider emotion as a weakness, but I am only human. I may be able to prevent my self from feeling certain emotions, but I can still feel regardless of my ideals or beliefs. I am human, flesh and blood and bone, not stone. I can still feel, even if I wish I could not.
I am not insulted. I'm just... a tad... upset...
But at the same time...
I'm glad...
I'm glad that after a few online encounters, someone could see my uniqueness and comment on it...
I'm glad to know that I'm not just one of hundreds of mass produced humans made up of carbon...
I am not insulted...
I'm just...
A tad...
upset...
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Why am I not allowed to change?
All living things change, whether physically or mentally. My mother, is accusing me of stealing her little piggy banks shaped like mickey mouse. So i might have lifted a few dollars from her purse as a child, but it's a phase that some if not all children go through! The one thing i hate most are people who think that a person is not allowed to change...
To pissed to write any more.
Yumemi out.
To pissed to write any more.
Yumemi out.
Friday, November 11, 2005
What are Emtions?
Love Fear Hatred Joy Anger Sorrow Pain Grief Indifference Confusion Nervous Coy Excited Bored Empty Disturbed Tired Shock Illness Love Greed Laziness Inspiration Desire Lust Loneliness Friendship Sadness
All signs of Human Frailty...
Humans are composed mostly of Carbon, composed of acids, bases, and proteins, along with a great many other elements.
But what about emotion?
What is emotion?
Is it the strange emptiness one feels when a dear friends leaves for home after a doy of playing on the computer at you house? Or is emotion merely a useless object that clouds judgement and hinders logical thinking?
What is emotion?
Is it a weakness?
Emotion such as anger causes brash and reckless behavior, causing a person to react without thinking, often times resulting in punishment or injury.
What is emotion?
Is it a strength?
Emotion such as love causes the desire to protect the object or person that is most prescious, even at the cost of your own life. It often ends with victory, the fullfillment of the deepest desires and happiness of the one in question... That is, if one succeeds in their task.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the driving force behind much of humankind's existence, causing society to change and fluctuate.
Without hatred and greed, there would be no wars and the human population would rise infinitly unless some natural cuase steps in to cause a decrease in the population, even thouogh it wouldn't help much in the reducing of the human comsumption of resources.
Without Love, desire, or lust, the population would decrease, without any future generations to continue our existence unless humankind were to reproduce through cloning or with some other technology.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the fluctuation in hormones and brainwaves, sending messeges through the nervous system to different parts of the body, releasing hormones and adreneline, causing the changes in mood and behavior.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the...
Emotion is...
Emotion is FEELING.
What is feeling?
Feeling is...
Emotion is not logical.
Feeling is not logical.
Emotion and feeling are instincts.
What are Insticts?
Instincts are the inborn tendancy to do something, to run, to hide, to fight, to eat, to mate.
What are emotions?
Emotions hold no logic and cannot be effectively described or analyzed.
If Emotions are not logical, how can they be trusted?
Emotions are not logical and cannot be trusted. But because Emotions stem from instinct, emotions are trusted.
Emotions...
I have supressed my emotions as to not beable to fall prey to the weaknesses that come with it, but with the supression of emotion, comes also the blindness of fools and the weaknesses of having no instict as a guide. I have no emotions, I need none.
All signs of Human Frailty...
Humans are composed mostly of Carbon, composed of acids, bases, and proteins, along with a great many other elements.
But what about emotion?
What is emotion?
Is it the strange emptiness one feels when a dear friends leaves for home after a doy of playing on the computer at you house? Or is emotion merely a useless object that clouds judgement and hinders logical thinking?
What is emotion?
Is it a weakness?
Emotion such as anger causes brash and reckless behavior, causing a person to react without thinking, often times resulting in punishment or injury.
What is emotion?
Is it a strength?
Emotion such as love causes the desire to protect the object or person that is most prescious, even at the cost of your own life. It often ends with victory, the fullfillment of the deepest desires and happiness of the one in question... That is, if one succeeds in their task.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the driving force behind much of humankind's existence, causing society to change and fluctuate.
Without hatred and greed, there would be no wars and the human population would rise infinitly unless some natural cuase steps in to cause a decrease in the population, even thouogh it wouldn't help much in the reducing of the human comsumption of resources.
Without Love, desire, or lust, the population would decrease, without any future generations to continue our existence unless humankind were to reproduce through cloning or with some other technology.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the fluctuation in hormones and brainwaves, sending messeges through the nervous system to different parts of the body, releasing hormones and adreneline, causing the changes in mood and behavior.
What is emotion?
Emotion is the...
Emotion is...
Emotion is FEELING.
What is feeling?
Feeling is...
Emotion is not logical.
Feeling is not logical.
Emotion and feeling are instincts.
What are Insticts?
Instincts are the inborn tendancy to do something, to run, to hide, to fight, to eat, to mate.
What are emotions?
Emotions hold no logic and cannot be effectively described or analyzed.
If Emotions are not logical, how can they be trusted?
Emotions are not logical and cannot be trusted. But because Emotions stem from instinct, emotions are trusted.
Emotions...
I have supressed my emotions as to not beable to fall prey to the weaknesses that come with it, but with the supression of emotion, comes also the blindness of fools and the weaknesses of having no instict as a guide. I have no emotions, I need none.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Year Book Pix
Year book pictures. Gotta go and get my Senior T-shirt from the student store. Bells gonna ring. Post again later.
Yumemi Out.
Yumemi Out.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Emotional Topic of the Day!!!
I'm feeling really bad, kinda depressed. As such, today's emotional topic is depression.
Everyone feels depressed at one point or another. Depression is stemmed from guilt and loneliness. Depressed people have a tendancy to try to kill themselves. Masks are usually a front used to hide depression from friends and family, so people close to the depressed person never realize that something is wrong until it is too late.
In scientific terms however, depression is caused by an imbalance in hormones.
In my own terms, depression is caused by a lack of something in life, something that is deperately desired but unacheivable. Depression can cause disorientation, lack of interest, fatigue, and suicidal tendencies, as well as unpredictable mood swings. Then again, the ladies may just be PMSing, and the guys may just be plain old fidgety since they haven't had any for a while.
Ducks and runs from murderous readers...
Depression can be a great number of things, and the definition of depression is different for each person....
Grins and bows...
So ends today's lecture. Now if you will excuse me, I'm going to go drown myself...
Everyone feels depressed at one point or another. Depression is stemmed from guilt and loneliness. Depressed people have a tendancy to try to kill themselves. Masks are usually a front used to hide depression from friends and family, so people close to the depressed person never realize that something is wrong until it is too late.
In scientific terms however, depression is caused by an imbalance in hormones.
In my own terms, depression is caused by a lack of something in life, something that is deperately desired but unacheivable. Depression can cause disorientation, lack of interest, fatigue, and suicidal tendencies, as well as unpredictable mood swings. Then again, the ladies may just be PMSing, and the guys may just be plain old fidgety since they haven't had any for a while.
Ducks and runs from murderous readers...
Depression can be a great number of things, and the definition of depression is different for each person....
Grins and bows...
So ends today's lecture. Now if you will excuse me, I'm going to go drown myself...
Monday, November 07, 2005
Hello! Accounting hour, yep yep
http://livejournal.com/users/KunoichiYumemi
My second LJ account, yay!
http://livejournal.com/users/KunoichiYumemi
My second LJ account, yay!
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Look outside!!! It's Cold!!!
Wow, it's cold outside...
Grins... It's a beautiful Sunday night! The night sky, the cool air, the wind whistling through the trees, the smell of whatever is left of dinner, my cat in my lap, my dog whining for attention in the backyard... It's just so beautiful out here...
I just ate, now I'm hungry again. that's just insane. IF i keep this up, some one will have to roll be to school, I'll be so fat...
My mother is insane... She's accussing me of insane things...
There is this one guy at school called Chris who won't stop bugging me... Ok, wait, that's not true. He was once one of my friends, a potential BF, but then, I don't feel comfortable around him anymore. It's official, we may make a good couple, but it won't work. I cannot be near him without feeling uneasy, as if something is way off.
Chris, if you are reading this, I'm very sorry, but it just won't work. WE won't work. Let's just be friends and say hello in fourth and leave it at that. No more walking me home on Mondays, Wednesdays, or Fridays. Leave that to Dana, insane little creature though he may be.
Tomorrow is Monday, and I am NOT a happy little senior...
Grins... It's a beautiful Sunday night! The night sky, the cool air, the wind whistling through the trees, the smell of whatever is left of dinner, my cat in my lap, my dog whining for attention in the backyard... It's just so beautiful out here...
I just ate, now I'm hungry again. that's just insane. IF i keep this up, some one will have to roll be to school, I'll be so fat...
My mother is insane... She's accussing me of insane things...
There is this one guy at school called Chris who won't stop bugging me... Ok, wait, that's not true. He was once one of my friends, a potential BF, but then, I don't feel comfortable around him anymore. It's official, we may make a good couple, but it won't work. I cannot be near him without feeling uneasy, as if something is way off.
Chris, if you are reading this, I'm very sorry, but it just won't work. WE won't work. Let's just be friends and say hello in fourth and leave it at that. No more walking me home on Mondays, Wednesdays, or Fridays. Leave that to Dana, insane little creature though he may be.
Tomorrow is Monday, and I am NOT a happy little senior...
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Live Journal
My mother is being a bitch again... She threatened to take away my laptop becuase I am on the computer too often. Well excuse me if my teachers like my papers typed instead of handwritten. I certainly cannot help my teacher's preferences where my schoolwork is concerned, and the bitch just goes on and on about my writing "USELESS STORIES"
HELLO!!! I'm not writing stories half the time! I'm typing up reports and labs and papers for my teachers! Incase she hasn't noticed, half of my grade in most of my classes are in written reports, and most of my teachers grade on neatness, in other words, whether the paper was typed or written.
What an idiot...
Anyway, here's a question to be answered...
First, go to my live journal via link above, which is the title, LiveJournal. read my most recent entry, then answer the following question...
in most anime, there are at least one character who is detatched, aloof, and emotionless, and believes that emotions are weak. I personally feel the same way. What do you think? Is emotion a strength or a weakness?
Write as much or as little as you like. I don't really mind much. I just want to know other people's opinions on this topic.
well... See ya!
HELLO!!! I'm not writing stories half the time! I'm typing up reports and labs and papers for my teachers! Incase she hasn't noticed, half of my grade in most of my classes are in written reports, and most of my teachers grade on neatness, in other words, whether the paper was typed or written.
What an idiot...
Anyway, here's a question to be answered...
First, go to my live journal via link above, which is the title, LiveJournal. read my most recent entry, then answer the following question...
in most anime, there are at least one character who is detatched, aloof, and emotionless, and believes that emotions are weak. I personally feel the same way. What do you think? Is emotion a strength or a weakness?
Write as much or as little as you like. I don't really mind much. I just want to know other people's opinions on this topic.
well... See ya!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Accounting test
tired.
looking at an interesting site, http://www.arborbooks.com
yeah...
working on my site, http://www.geocities.com/kunoichi_umi/White_Mage_Tales.html
I need help... Lots of it. I can't get past the first page. Please, can someone help me?
Woke up late today, six twenty, yet miraculously, I managed to get to school about ten to fiftewen minutes before zero period began.
Food festival up next. Looks like I'll be heading down to the art club's table first. It's only fair that I participate at least marginally.
Class is about to end. I'll post again later.
looking at an interesting site, http://www.arborbooks.com
yeah...
working on my site, http://www.geocities.com/kunoichi_umi/White_Mage_Tales.html
I need help... Lots of it. I can't get past the first page. Please, can someone help me?
Woke up late today, six twenty, yet miraculously, I managed to get to school about ten to fiftewen minutes before zero period began.
Food festival up next. Looks like I'll be heading down to the art club's table first. It's only fair that I participate at least marginally.
Class is about to end. I'll post again later.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Firstt of November
Tired.
My alarm went off around four in the morning. I know I set it for five...
Anyway, my eardrums nearly burst while I was looking for the stupid alarm clock. It was almost half an hour before I was coherent enough to realize that the clock was on my desk. I was so close to a nerrvous breakdown!!! God I'm tired. I guess I'll just go to sleep...
My alarm went off around four in the morning. I know I set it for five...
Anyway, my eardrums nearly burst while I was looking for the stupid alarm clock. It was almost half an hour before I was coherent enough to realize that the clock was on my desk. I was so close to a nerrvous breakdown!!! God I'm tired. I guess I'll just go to sleep...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Saturday before Halloween
I'm tired. Halloween is almost here, and it looks like I'm going to be a witch or a princess... My costumes are so very stupid...
I'm confused about how I feel right now... My heart is beating really fast, and I can't breathe. I know I'm not feeling excited cause I can sit still, and I don't feel disgusted, cuase I'm not sneering at the laptop. I'm pretty confused...
I'll post again later when I can figure out what the hell is going on...
I'm confused about how I feel right now... My heart is beating really fast, and I can't breathe. I know I'm not feeling excited cause I can sit still, and I don't feel disgusted, cuase I'm not sneering at the laptop. I'm pretty confused...
I'll post again later when I can figure out what the hell is going on...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Another thing...
My laptop is acting up it seems... I can't access my e-mail, and I can't IM my frieds. What's a girl to do?
Anyway, at least I still have access to some websites... I'm really depressed... god only knows that it takes forever in order to get into certain sites, and the school computers block other sites... sigh...
Any way... I'm gonna go. for real this time...
Anyway, at least I still have access to some websites... I'm really depressed... god only knows that it takes forever in order to get into certain sites, and the school computers block other sites... sigh...
Any way... I'm gonna go. for real this time...
I am really going to snap if something isn't done...
My mother is a racist bitch. One of my dear friends, Mitsuki, lives on College View ?Rd? ?Drive? According to my mother, that area's mostly populated by hispanics, so she automatically assumed my friend was hispanic. My friend Marrissa is Japanese dammit! I told her that she was wrong, and she had the audacity to yell at me and threaten to not allow me to go out with friends! I didn't do anything wrong! She's the one playing RACIST!!!!
Stupid racist bitch!
I can't believe that I'm related to that-that THING!!!
To make things worse, she's taking a break, so I'll have to deal with that RACIST since she'll be home everyday for the next week.
Seriously... First I have to deal with a delusional boy, now I have to deal with a racist bitch of a mother. Do I have the worst luck or what? If things keep up the way they are, I'm going to snap, and it's not going to be pretty.
I have school tomorrow, so I'm gonna go to bed...
Stupid racist bitch!
I can't believe that I'm related to that-that THING!!!
To make things worse, she's taking a break, so I'll have to deal with that RACIST since she'll be home everyday for the next week.
Seriously... First I have to deal with a delusional boy, now I have to deal with a racist bitch of a mother. Do I have the worst luck or what? If things keep up the way they are, I'm going to snap, and it's not going to be pretty.
I have school tomorrow, so I'm gonna go to bed...
I am at the Limit of My Patience
Dana Ryan Mills is such a damned ass. He doesn't like it when I call him ugly? Well, too bad, cause not only is he uglier than hell, he insults ME every time he says that I'm genderless.
I'M NOT FUCKING GENDERLESS ASSHOLE!!! I'M A GIRL! AND I AM AT LEAST ACCEPTING OF HOW I LOOK!!!
**Deep breath...**
If he doesn't realize how stupid he is, I'm going to kill him. I swear to the God that I do not believe in that if he tries to pull anything funny, I will rip him to shreds.
I mean, come on! He has a family, and he dares suggest that he was abandoned by his family? I mean, puh-lease! I've met his family, and they are the last people who would abandon a helpless baby. I only tolerate him because we happen to have mutual friends. If Sana and Sanchi were not my dearest friends, I would have left that circle of insane idiots a very long time ago.
And you know what's worse?
I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM!!! I FEEL SORRY FOR THE FUCKING ASS SINCE HE IS SO OBVIOUSLY DELUSIONAL!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM!!! THAT IS SO UNBELIEVABLE!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!!!
**Deep Breath...**
OK....... I'm calm.... I'm calm...... My soul is a still lake....
I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR AN ASS LIKE DANA RYAN MILLS!
**Deep Breath... Calm down... Deep Breath...**
I tolerated him for as long as I possibly could, but I'm at the end of my tether here! He's so very imbedded in his delusions, he tries to draw other people into his dream world! I honestly have to wonder how I can actually put up with that boy! He's creepy, and he's constantly covered in cat hair! Hell, he smells of cat food! He's convinced I'm some sort of supernatural creature, and a Queen of Elves to boot! Hell, He's watched Crest of the Stars so often, that he's become convinced that he's the emperor of the Ahb Empire!
Dee-lus-ion-nal!
How can he actually believe that he is a character of an anime!
I cannot believe him! He even has the damn audacity to believe that I'm engaged to a bunch of anime characters! He's making me look like a fucking slut! Well, one thing is for sure, if something like this happens again, I'm going to rip into him so badly, that not even God will be able to find all the pieces.
I'M NOT FUCKING GENDERLESS ASSHOLE!!! I'M A GIRL! AND I AM AT LEAST ACCEPTING OF HOW I LOOK!!!
**Deep breath...**
If he doesn't realize how stupid he is, I'm going to kill him. I swear to the God that I do not believe in that if he tries to pull anything funny, I will rip him to shreds.
I mean, come on! He has a family, and he dares suggest that he was abandoned by his family? I mean, puh-lease! I've met his family, and they are the last people who would abandon a helpless baby. I only tolerate him because we happen to have mutual friends. If Sana and Sanchi were not my dearest friends, I would have left that circle of insane idiots a very long time ago.
And you know what's worse?
I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM!!! I FEEL SORRY FOR THE FUCKING ASS SINCE HE IS SO OBVIOUSLY DELUSIONAL!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM!!! THAT IS SO UNBELIEVABLE!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!!!
**Deep Breath...**
OK....... I'm calm.... I'm calm...... My soul is a still lake....
I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR AN ASS LIKE DANA RYAN MILLS!
**Deep Breath... Calm down... Deep Breath...**
I tolerated him for as long as I possibly could, but I'm at the end of my tether here! He's so very imbedded in his delusions, he tries to draw other people into his dream world! I honestly have to wonder how I can actually put up with that boy! He's creepy, and he's constantly covered in cat hair! Hell, he smells of cat food! He's convinced I'm some sort of supernatural creature, and a Queen of Elves to boot! Hell, He's watched Crest of the Stars so often, that he's become convinced that he's the emperor of the Ahb Empire!
Dee-lus-ion-nal!
How can he actually believe that he is a character of an anime!
I cannot believe him! He even has the damn audacity to believe that I'm engaged to a bunch of anime characters! He's making me look like a fucking slut! Well, one thing is for sure, if something like this happens again, I'm going to rip into him so badly, that not even God will be able to find all the pieces.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Accounting is killing me!!!
I'm so very tired.... Accounting is hard now! **SOBS**
My classes are killing me!
I can't take it anymore!!!!
You know, I think the most that I have ever done with this blog, is complain...
Oh, well...
Anyway, I have some work due at the end of the period, so I'll update again later.
Umi out.
My classes are killing me!
I can't take it anymore!!!!
You know, I think the most that I have ever done with this blog, is complain...
Oh, well...
Anyway, I have some work due at the end of the period, so I'll update again later.
Umi out.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Friday
I'm tired, I'm hungry, and most of all, I'm cranky, nauseaus, dizzy, headachy, and sick. Can anyone beside my friends see a reason why I'm in a bad mood today?
Anyway, it's Friday, so there really isn't much for me to complain about...
Anyway, Senior year, and I have a bunch of things to do. I'm swamped beyond words, and I also have to do the college applications, send in requests for financial aid, and I still have to take my SATs. Looks like I'm stuck with a junior college. Bleargh......
I just want to eat, and then get some sleep...
So tired...
So hungry...
Oh, well... At least this is fourth period. Lunch is right after this...
Anyway... I got an A! I actually did well on my chapter 5 test! Well... I actually needed four to five tries before I managed to get the equation to balance... I just an so happy that we didn't have to analyze the transaction... I didn't catch that at all.... I have no idea how to analyze any transactions... Of course, I might get it if I read the book...
Anyway... I don't seem to do anything but complain lately, do I? I'm pretty damn stupid and childish sometimes, aren't I?
Anyway... I am in the middle of taking notes for my accounting class, so I'll post again later...
Yumemi Out.
Anyway, it's Friday, so there really isn't much for me to complain about...
Anyway, Senior year, and I have a bunch of things to do. I'm swamped beyond words, and I also have to do the college applications, send in requests for financial aid, and I still have to take my SATs. Looks like I'm stuck with a junior college. Bleargh......
I just want to eat, and then get some sleep...
So tired...
So hungry...
Oh, well... At least this is fourth period. Lunch is right after this...
Anyway... I got an A! I actually did well on my chapter 5 test! Well... I actually needed four to five tries before I managed to get the equation to balance... I just an so happy that we didn't have to analyze the transaction... I didn't catch that at all.... I have no idea how to analyze any transactions... Of course, I might get it if I read the book...
Anyway... I don't seem to do anything but complain lately, do I? I'm pretty damn stupid and childish sometimes, aren't I?
Anyway... I am in the middle of taking notes for my accounting class, so I'll post again later...
Yumemi Out.
Monday, October 17, 2005
DEADLINE!!!
Deadline is coming for college applications. I haven't taken my SATs yet...
I need Algebra II to get into a CalState, but Algebra II A isn't going to cut it. It's too late to transfer... I have to wait until second semester, and by then, I'm going to be really far behind...
I am so screwed.
BTW rain today. Thunder during sixth period caused a blackout, and the teacher STILL made us work... Talk about unfair...
Anyway, I've got alot of work to do , so I better leave.
Good night!
Yumemi out!
I need Algebra II to get into a CalState, but Algebra II A isn't going to cut it. It's too late to transfer... I have to wait until second semester, and by then, I'm going to be really far behind...
I am so screwed.
BTW rain today. Thunder during sixth period caused a blackout, and the teacher STILL made us work... Talk about unfair...
Anyway, I've got alot of work to do , so I better leave.
Good night!
Yumemi out!
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Wednesday...
So it's wednesday... two more days till the weekend! Anyway.... I think I might have come down with a slight cold...
Anyway... I'm rather tired... but this isn't unusual, especially considering my schedule lately. My Zero was rather interesting today, and I've started on catching up with the rest of the class. Not that I'm lazy or anything, Its simply the fact that I started the class a bit late.
Anyway, I managed to unearth my friend's email, one that had been missing for quite a while. I'm very happy, and I've sent her an email. I'm expecting her to reply anyday now. Anyhow, I'm gonna go now. I still have some classwork to finish...
Anyway... I'm rather tired... but this isn't unusual, especially considering my schedule lately. My Zero was rather interesting today, and I've started on catching up with the rest of the class. Not that I'm lazy or anything, Its simply the fact that I started the class a bit late.
Anyway, I managed to unearth my friend's email, one that had been missing for quite a while. I'm very happy, and I've sent her an email. I'm expecting her to reply anyday now. Anyhow, I'm gonna go now. I still have some classwork to finish...
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Tuesday... three more days to go...
So, fourth period... And it's tuesday! yay!
I can't believe how quickly time flies... Middle of the quarter already...
I could have sworn that School had started only yesterday... Well, I KNOW school didn't start yesterday, but it feels like school only just started...
Anyway... I'm in the middle of accounting, and the teacher is coming around, so I'll post again later.
I can't believe how quickly time flies... Middle of the quarter already...
I could have sworn that School had started only yesterday... Well, I KNOW school didn't start yesterday, but it feels like school only just started...
Anyway... I'm in the middle of accounting, and the teacher is coming around, so I'll post again later.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Another Monday
So, It's fourth period, and as usual I'm hungry.
I know what you're thinking, you're always hungry at fourth period.
I know that it's usual. But still, add that to how tired I am because of zero period, I doubt that I can live that long. Nevertheless, I really have to start doing my homework, since warning notices are coming out soon. I really don't do well in Algebra, math was never my strong point.
Anyway, I borrowed an Rurouni Kenshin Manga from a friend called Sydney. I was going to return it to him this morning between zero and first, but I couldn't find him anywhere near the bungalows at the PE area. Sadly, if I can't find him, I con't return the book, and I can't borrow any more of the Rurouni Kenshin Mangas.
It's been a full week since I've started zero period, but I don't think I will ever get used to getting up at five, then arriving at school at six-thirty. I've been napping in my second period lately, but that's not at all a good thing. I've been missing out on a lot of things that way...
Like today, we were going over the things we ned for the upcoming test, but I fell asleep. I barely took any notes, and the teacher was giving us the answers to the test too!
Anyway, I really hate my zero nowadays. I mean, as much as I like Drafting, I really don't need the added workload. I have a lot of work to do, and yet, I can't finish anything unless I go without sleep, but considering my schedule, tha's not an option.
I can compromise, do some work at school, finish the rest at home, get at least five to three hours of sleep in the meantime.
I have a site that I'm working on, but considering my workload, I doubt that I'll be working on it for a very long time. But I suppose that it would be a good thing if I get all my work done.
Anyway, I finally have someone my age to IM me. My friend Christopher. Anyway, we're chatting right now, while I'm updating this blog. For those of you who are waiting for my other blog, which I have under a completely false name, it won't be updated anytime soon.
I can guarentee that I will have the next chapterr for WhiteMageTales out by Friday... If people like it, I'll publish it on FictionPress.net
Meanwhile, I'm gonna go do my livejournal...
I know what you're thinking, you're always hungry at fourth period.
I know that it's usual. But still, add that to how tired I am because of zero period, I doubt that I can live that long. Nevertheless, I really have to start doing my homework, since warning notices are coming out soon. I really don't do well in Algebra, math was never my strong point.
Anyway, I borrowed an Rurouni Kenshin Manga from a friend called Sydney. I was going to return it to him this morning between zero and first, but I couldn't find him anywhere near the bungalows at the PE area. Sadly, if I can't find him, I con't return the book, and I can't borrow any more of the Rurouni Kenshin Mangas.
It's been a full week since I've started zero period, but I don't think I will ever get used to getting up at five, then arriving at school at six-thirty. I've been napping in my second period lately, but that's not at all a good thing. I've been missing out on a lot of things that way...
Like today, we were going over the things we ned for the upcoming test, but I fell asleep. I barely took any notes, and the teacher was giving us the answers to the test too!
Anyway, I really hate my zero nowadays. I mean, as much as I like Drafting, I really don't need the added workload. I have a lot of work to do, and yet, I can't finish anything unless I go without sleep, but considering my schedule, tha's not an option.
I can compromise, do some work at school, finish the rest at home, get at least five to three hours of sleep in the meantime.
I have a site that I'm working on, but considering my workload, I doubt that I'll be working on it for a very long time. But I suppose that it would be a good thing if I get all my work done.
Anyway, I finally have someone my age to IM me. My friend Christopher. Anyway, we're chatting right now, while I'm updating this blog. For those of you who are waiting for my other blog, which I have under a completely false name, it won't be updated anytime soon.
I can guarentee that I will have the next chapterr for WhiteMageTales out by Friday... If people like it, I'll publish it on FictionPress.net
Meanwhile, I'm gonna go do my livejournal...
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I HATE BOYS!
I UTTERLY HATE THIS ONE BOY I KNOW! He is insane, and thinks he is the emperor of the AHB empire. His name, is DANA RYAN MILLS. He thinks that I am engaged to Athrun Zalla, Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, and am best friends with Elrond, Galadriel, Arwen, Aragorn, and that I am his cousin.
He is convinced that he is married and that he has memories of his past life.
OK, let's set things srtaight.
ATHRUN ZALLA is from Gundam Seed Destiny, and thus, not real.
HEERO YUY and DUO MAXWELL are from Gundam Wing, and thus, they are also not real.
ELROND, GALADRIEL, ARWEN, AND ARAGORN are from the Lord of the Rings, and so they too, are not real...
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST... Last time I checked, my mother's side of the family was vietnamese, and my father's side was pure Japanese! I am by no means White! Not a single ounce of my heritage comes from anywhere near Europe!
Have my rant gotten old yet?
If so, sorry, cause I'm not done.
He is uterly insane, and he lives in this weird fantasy world. He is convinced that I am immortal, and that I am his spiritual guardian.
What the fuck is he smoking!!!???
I mean, immortal? I wish!
He is convinced that he is married and that he has memories of his past life.
OK, let's set things srtaight.
ATHRUN ZALLA is from Gundam Seed Destiny, and thus, not real.
HEERO YUY and DUO MAXWELL are from Gundam Wing, and thus, they are also not real.
ELROND, GALADRIEL, ARWEN, AND ARAGORN are from the Lord of the Rings, and so they too, are not real...
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST... Last time I checked, my mother's side of the family was vietnamese, and my father's side was pure Japanese! I am by no means White! Not a single ounce of my heritage comes from anywhere near Europe!
Have my rant gotten old yet?
If so, sorry, cause I'm not done.
He is uterly insane, and he lives in this weird fantasy world. He is convinced that I am immortal, and that I am his spiritual guardian.
What the fuck is he smoking!!!???
I mean, immortal? I wish!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Bell Schedule for Earthquake drill
There is to be an earth quake drill tomorrow. Just to remind myself, here's the schedule.
Period Time
0 6:43 - 7:30
1 7:41 - 8:27
2 8:34 - 9:20
3 9:27 - 10:13
4 10:20 - 11:10
drill 11:10 - 12:10
lunch 12:10 - 12:49
5 12:57 - 1:43
6 1:51 - 2:37
Period Time
0 6:43 - 7:30
1 7:41 - 8:27
2 8:34 - 9:20
3 9:27 - 10:13
4 10:20 - 11:10
drill 11:10 - 12:10
lunch 12:10 - 12:49
5 12:57 - 1:43
6 1:51 - 2:37
First Day of Zero
First day of Zero Period. I got up at five in order to get to school by 6:30.
It's fourth Period now, and I'm very tired. I'm also hungry, but this is fourth period, lunch is just after this, so that's nothing unusual.
If I feel this tired four periods after Zero, I dread to think how I'll feel by the end of the week. I already look horrible with the dark circles under my eyes, and I'll probably look worse by the time Friday comes around.
I just finished my practice test, and I got everything correct. Sadly, I had to redo everything at least twice before the equation would balance. Anyway, the bell is about to ring, so I'll post again later.
It's fourth Period now, and I'm very tired. I'm also hungry, but this is fourth period, lunch is just after this, so that's nothing unusual.
If I feel this tired four periods after Zero, I dread to think how I'll feel by the end of the week. I already look horrible with the dark circles under my eyes, and I'll probably look worse by the time Friday comes around.
I just finished my practice test, and I got everything correct. Sadly, I had to redo everything at least twice before the equation would balance. Anyway, the bell is about to ring, so I'll post again later.
Monday, October 03, 2005
I have a zero period
My counselor gave me a zero period today. I can't blame her, seeing as I'm fifteen credits behind. But I will put up with it. I do want to graduate after all.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Friday, September 30, 2005
Good day vs Bad Day
This morning, I spoke with my mother about the SATs, and she had the gall to yell at me. She yelled at me. I just wanted to know when she was going to sign me up to take the SATs.
What type of parent YELLS at their kids just because they want to succeed?
The way my mother has been going on, you'd think that she doesn't want me to succeed.
Most parents want their kid to succeed.
What type of parent is that?
My life is seriously warped.
I utterly love writing. I even have my own little profile in fanfiction.net
You can find me under the penname KunoichiUmi
Anyway, there is an anime club meeting at lunch today. I'm not quite sure if i want to join or not, but i do know that I'll spend a part of lunch in the library, and if not the library, than either in 145 or in the cafeteria.
Anyway, has anyone noticed that I've mostly been posting while I'm in class?
Geez.
Talk about inconsistant.
Any way, I've also got an account at fictionpress.net
You can find me under the penname KunoichiUmi
If you can't get me, then either put in an under score or a space when you use the search engine.
Sigh.
Period four.
Just a few more minutes and I can go to lunch.
I can't wait. I'm absolutely starving.
I was so pissed off with my mother this morning that I threw away my breakfast without eating it and came straight to school.
I threw everything into the trash, bowl, ceral, milk, spoon and all.
Teehee!
What type of parent YELLS at their kids just because they want to succeed?
The way my mother has been going on, you'd think that she doesn't want me to succeed.
Most parents want their kid to succeed.
What type of parent is that?
My life is seriously warped.
I utterly love writing. I even have my own little profile in fanfiction.net
You can find me under the penname KunoichiUmi
Anyway, there is an anime club meeting at lunch today. I'm not quite sure if i want to join or not, but i do know that I'll spend a part of lunch in the library, and if not the library, than either in 145 or in the cafeteria.
Anyway, has anyone noticed that I've mostly been posting while I'm in class?
Geez.
Talk about inconsistant.
Any way, I've also got an account at fictionpress.net
You can find me under the penname KunoichiUmi
If you can't get me, then either put in an under score or a space when you use the search engine.
Sigh.
Period four.
Just a few more minutes and I can go to lunch.
I can't wait. I'm absolutely starving.
I was so pissed off with my mother this morning that I threw away my breakfast without eating it and came straight to school.
I threw everything into the trash, bowl, ceral, milk, spoon and all.
Teehee!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
I never thought that accounting could be so confusing!
I never thought that accounting could be so confusing! I think I prefered the lessons from the beginning. they were much easier back then. I'm really tired now, though. I want to have lunch, but I know that I won't have any, considering that I haven't done any of my Algebra II homework just yet. I hope that Mr. Luk won't start walking up and down the aisle to check if we have our homework. God only knows how badly I'll fail the class if he did.
Anyway, I really need a break. I can't survive like this! I really need to find friends who won't try to kill me at the drop of a hat.
Anyway, I really need a break. I can't survive like this! I really need to find friends who won't try to kill me at the drop of a hat.
Knights of the Zodiac
I've finally managed to get Knoghts of the Zodiac from my friend. Finally! I actually had to call his parents and ask them to remind him to bring the manga. Then, I'm talking to Sana and Sanchi about Belgerion, and Dana actually has the gall to try to push me down the stairs! Some friend. I may not be the smartest person in the world, but I do know one thing, real friends don't try to kill each other!
Damn, lesson started. I'll post again later.
Yumemi out.
Damn, lesson started. I'll post again later.
Yumemi out.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Afterschool at the library
I was so busy at lunch time, that by the time I finished my assignment, there was no time to eat. Now I'm hungry.
I'm currently at the school library, voluntering. I really hope that one of these days, I'll be able to find a good set of manga at library. I do hope that I'll be able to find Tokyo Babylon volume 2 before I graduate.I'd love to read it.
Actually, it would be more responsible if I was more worried about graduating instead of what books I hope that I'll beable to read. I mean, honestly, what kind of senior am I?
Anyway, I figured out how to determine the balance for a T account. It was pretty easy. I also have to teach Veena how to work Excel to complete the chapter three work. Me myself, I was shaking all through the lesson. I didn't want to teach her the wrong thing by accident.
Anyway, I have an Algebra II test tomorrow. I really hope I pass, cause I honestly don't want to stay afterschool with Mr. Luk, even if it is for tutoring. But I also was to pass, and I want to graduate. AHH!!!
This is actually one of those circular thoughts. You think one thought, it leads to another disturbing thought, that one leads to another one, and that one leads you back to the beginning, and everything starts all over again. This makes my head hurt... @o@
Anyway, I have a minimal amount of homework today, and I'm just really glad that I can get them all done during school, resulting in only one or two assignments to take home, hopefully without aby books. I mean, hello! Anyone tried carrying home six very heavy books for twelve blocks?
It's very painful.
Trust me.
Anyway, the library is closing. So I guess I'll post again later.
Ja!
I'm currently at the school library, voluntering. I really hope that one of these days, I'll be able to find a good set of manga at library. I do hope that I'll be able to find Tokyo Babylon volume 2 before I graduate.I'd love to read it.
Actually, it would be more responsible if I was more worried about graduating instead of what books I hope that I'll beable to read. I mean, honestly, what kind of senior am I?
Anyway, I figured out how to determine the balance for a T account. It was pretty easy. I also have to teach Veena how to work Excel to complete the chapter three work. Me myself, I was shaking all through the lesson. I didn't want to teach her the wrong thing by accident.
Anyway, I have an Algebra II test tomorrow. I really hope I pass, cause I honestly don't want to stay afterschool with Mr. Luk, even if it is for tutoring. But I also was to pass, and I want to graduate. AHH!!!
This is actually one of those circular thoughts. You think one thought, it leads to another disturbing thought, that one leads to another one, and that one leads you back to the beginning, and everything starts all over again. This makes my head hurt... @o@
Anyway, I have a minimal amount of homework today, and I'm just really glad that I can get them all done during school, resulting in only one or two assignments to take home, hopefully without aby books. I mean, hello! Anyone tried carrying home six very heavy books for twelve blocks?
It's very painful.
Trust me.
Anyway, the library is closing. So I guess I'll post again later.
Ja!
Anything but Classwork!
I love Kenshin (A character in one of my favorite mangas). I really shouldn't do things like this during class, but hey! This is the only class during which I actually have acess to a computer. Lunch doesn't count as a period.
I'm totally confused now. Serves me right for not paying attention. But I'm sure that given time, I'll understand everything. Sadly, I don't have time. Not much, anyway. I can always get the first part, but I can never catch the end, when we balance every thing. I try, but I just can't catch it! It's just so frustrating!
I'm gonna post this now, and go ask for help. I'll probably post again later.
I'm totally confused now. Serves me right for not paying attention. But I'm sure that given time, I'll understand everything. Sadly, I don't have time. Not much, anyway. I can always get the first part, but I can never catch the end, when we balance every thing. I try, but I just can't catch it! It's just so frustrating!
I'm gonna post this now, and go ask for help. I'll probably post again later.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
I really should do my classwork
I really should concentrate on my school work, but honestly! I can do the work easily at home. I'm not as lazy as I seem. I just don't know what to do. I miss some of my friends in the second period Accountin. they were a lot of help. They actually bugged me to do my work in class. Damn, I really sound whiny, don't I? Hmph.
Anyway, I really can't get onto my Xanga. This really pisses me off. All Xanga is is a journal of sorts. and the school labels it e-mail and chat! It's blocked! I am so totally pissed!
Anyway, I really can't get onto my Xanga. This really pisses me off. All Xanga is is a journal of sorts. and the school labels it e-mail and chat! It's blocked! I am so totally pissed!
Change of Periods
I honestly hate my life. My own classes have all been switched around. I really hate Algebra II, and now, when I'm in my last year of school, I'm stuck in Algebra II two years. Plus, my schedule has been changed for the second time in the past week. Enviromental Science is still my first, but my second period is now Economics. Third is still World Lit, but my fourth period is now accounting. Fifth is now Algebra II, and sixth is still American Lit. my old scedule was as follows:
Period Class
1 Enviromental Science
2 Accounting
3 World Lit
4 Algebra II
5 Economics
6 American Lit
Big change, huh?
I'm also low on credits, so I'm in a bit of a jam. By the end of the school year, I'll probably be missing about ten elective credits.
Honestly?
I am really pissed. I should have done better, I could have done better. Of course, it's a little late for that. I'm not happy, but if I can find someway to put up those credits, hopefully in summer school, I'll be happy. Speaking of summer school, can a senior even take summer school?
If not, then I'm seriously screwed.
Period Class
1 Enviromental Science
2 Accounting
3 World Lit
4 Algebra II
5 Economics
6 American Lit
Big change, huh?
I'm also low on credits, so I'm in a bit of a jam. By the end of the school year, I'll probably be missing about ten elective credits.
Honestly?
I am really pissed. I should have done better, I could have done better. Of course, it's a little late for that. I'm not happy, but if I can find someway to put up those credits, hopefully in summer school, I'll be happy. Speaking of summer school, can a senior even take summer school?
If not, then I'm seriously screwed.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Second Period: Accounting
it's amazing how quickly life can go downhill. I lost my binder yesterday at lunch, and i only recovered it when I got into first period this morning. I'm very lucky that I had a minimal amount of homework yesterday, and it's nothing due in the first two periods. Anyway, any home work i had has been finished in class, thank goodness for small favors.
Anyway, I just finished taking my practice-test for accounting, and there was only one small mistake, which was easily fixed. I left off a negative when there were two assets. A small and careless mistake, but it was easily fixed, and the equation is balanced. Accounting is easily one of my favorite and easiest classes by far. Easy A.
So, I also have bad news. I'm doing very badly in Algebra II, and I need it to get into Cal State. I'd take Algebra II two years, but I'm in my senior year, and it would be highly embarressing to end up as a Super-Senior.
Besides, if I don't graduate... I'll never get my novels by Susan R. Matthews. However, that is irrelevant. If I work hard, I hope to at least pass Algebra II with at least a C or a D. I'll settle for a C, thanks. I want to graduate, and I must not let senior-itis get to me. I CANNOT!!!
Is it obvious that I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown yet? HA! only two-three weeks into school, and I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Pathetic, really.
Anyhow, We're checking the practice test now, so I'll post again later.
Yumemi out.
Anyway, I just finished taking my practice-test for accounting, and there was only one small mistake, which was easily fixed. I left off a negative when there were two assets. A small and careless mistake, but it was easily fixed, and the equation is balanced. Accounting is easily one of my favorite and easiest classes by far. Easy A.
So, I also have bad news. I'm doing very badly in Algebra II, and I need it to get into Cal State. I'd take Algebra II two years, but I'm in my senior year, and it would be highly embarressing to end up as a Super-Senior.
Besides, if I don't graduate... I'll never get my novels by Susan R. Matthews. However, that is irrelevant. If I work hard, I hope to at least pass Algebra II with at least a C or a D. I'll settle for a C, thanks. I want to graduate, and I must not let senior-itis get to me. I CANNOT!!!
Is it obvious that I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown yet? HA! only two-three weeks into school, and I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Pathetic, really.
Anyhow, We're checking the practice test now, so I'll post again later.
Yumemi out.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Hello and Welcome!
People are always saying how horrible the english dub on the anime are, and i really have to agree. for now, I'm new here, and I suppose the best thing to do is wait and hope for the best. Maybe I'll even beable to come up with a logical reason as to why i created this blog.
Unitl then, Yumemi, out!
Unitl then, Yumemi, out!
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